Monday Thoughts 4.11.22

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Dear 4C Women,

I always think of the WFS program as choice and change.  I can make a choice and I can make a change through that choice.  Happiness is one of those choices.  I use to be a very envious person and so I related to Karen’s thoughts about some people being born lucky and I wasn’t one of them.  Little did I connect my attitude towards creating my own happiness.  What I learned is that life is full of ups and downs, happy times and sad times.  I focused way too much on the down times in describing my life.  The good, happy times were a fluke and sure enough the other shoe would drop and validate my outlook on life.  Alcohol certainly didn’t provide me with insight to see that I had created this lopsided view of happiness, joy in my life.  I’ve had some beautiful moments of happiness.  Yet, my outlook, my attitude kept me from seeing the balance and learning that I could and needed to work on embracing those happy moments and create more of them by being proactive. 

I am a firm believer in acknowledging authentic feelings.  It helps me to identify what’s going on in the depth of my heart.  It validates those feelings which then becomes a guide for me to work through and understand the sad and angry feelings to create the balance I yearn for.  It’s been more challenging over the past two or so years to see the balance.  I can’t deny that.  I’m not alone either as we all have been experiencing the sad aspects of the pandemic, losing loved ones, being sick ourselves, being unable to visit loved ones, working in isolation from home, learning new ways of coping that for many of us, we were not prepared for such extremes.  And now the helpless feeling of the war in Ukraine.  When I experience those feelings, I have a coping tool that helps me.  I go back to the basics.  I make a list of what I am grateful for, the loving people in my life, my support system, appreciating what I do have, what I can still physically do and work on putting needed self-care back into my routine.  Doing that creates a sense of balance and hope.  My greatest gift in recovery is hope.  For me, hope is my foundation.  Hope fuels my proactive side.  Creating happiness is all part of that.  When I read Karen’s experience at the airport and her attitude about the situation, it was and is a powerful example of how our attitude, our thought process can completely change the entire experience. 

I do believe that others can provide and add happiness to our lives.  The imbalance is when we depend solely on others to do that.  Our expectations are too high along with the cost to our relationships.  We get disappointed, angry or confused about relationships if that is our only source of joy or happiness.  And what an unfair burden to place on someone.  So, this week, perhaps make a concerted effort, a plan, to create happiness in your life.  It can be as simple as calling someone you’ve been missing, reconnecting with enthusiasm, doing something you love by volunteering, sending a “thinking of you” card to brighten up someone’s day, be spontaneous and say yes to an unexpected invitation, turn on your favorite music and sing along (no judgment on your singing abilities!), dance with abandon around the room and discover or rediscover what brings a smile to your face and share the experience! 

Bonded in creating balance, practicing self-care, being authentic and proactive in experiencing joy and happiness, Dee

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